So another year of my useless life is passing sunday, yippee to me, should I be whoring myself off to all the other internet peoples like normal freaks here do? *shrugs*

-Sedyana

Hey I was a little astonished this was even an issue so I want to hear what all of you think about it!

Your title How do you feel about the term Illegal Immigrant when used in politics? It's reasonable and not really offensive It's a racist and insensative term There's no such thing as an illegal human being, thusly is offensive view results

If you have any thoughts feel free to post them, I'm curious to what you think.

I know it's really old to hear about "bad Obama" this and "bad Obama" that, but I thought this was interesting so I'll type it all out:

Professor Joseph Olson of Hemline University School of Law, St. Paul, Minnesota, points out some interesting facts concerning the Presidential election:

-Number of States won by: Democrats: 19 Republicans: 29
-Square miles of land won by: Democrats: 580,000 Republicans: 2,427,000
-Population of counties won by: Democrats: 127 million Republicans 143 Million
-Murder rate per 100,000 residents in counties won by: Democrats 13.2 Republicans: 2.1

Professor Olson adds: "In aggregate, the map of the territory Republican won was mostly the land owned by the taxpaying citizens of the country. Democrat territory mostly encompassed those citizens living in the government-owned tenements and living off various forms of government welfare..."

Olson believes the United States is now somewhere between the "complacency and apathy" phase of Professor Tyler's definition of democracy, with some forty percent of the nation's population already having reached the "governmental dependency" phase.

If Congress grants amnesty and citizenship to twenty million criminal invaders called illegals and they vote, then we can say goodbye to the USA in fewer than five years.




Been needing to type this out for a couple weeks now, just been really busy with school and such, it was a printed thing I got from school.

On a side note I'm incredibly stressed right now, my grandmother is dying, my national test is on friday, I'm over my head and debt and only now finding out that Pharmacy Techs make way less than I was told when I started my program. I feel like I've wasted not only a huge amount of my money but my time as well *sighs*.

~Sedyana

Well I've maxed out my credit card now... . again. My car is fixed, insurance paid until April, I still have to pay for my state certification and gas until April, I owe an ass load for my student loans. I feel choked, I have a little cash left in my actual account but the stress is piling on. I don't get paid for working at walgreens, and I have to get to school. Everyone is just sucking cash from me that I don't have. The government didn't help with any grants because they said it was my parent's responsibility to provide for my education (though they've not claimed me on their taxes since I was 17), I turned and asked them if they put anything away, like 20 bucks or something; naturally they spit in my face instead. They can pay 7000 USD a year to their fucking church but don't put a dime away for their own kid's educations, fucking cockbags *rolls her eyes*.

I hate this stress... I was getting into school to help my life and get away from the depression not make it worse.

x.x so tired.

Monday -
8:00 am - 10:10 am Advanced Pharmacology

Tuesday -
8:00 am - 12:00 pm Walgreen's Externship
12:40 pm - 2:50 pm CPhT Review

Wednesday -
8:00 am - 10:10 am Advanced Pharmacology
10:20 am - 12:30 pm Career Development
1:00 pm - 7:00 pm Walgreen's Externship

Thursday -
8:00 am - 12:00 pm Walgreen's Externship
12:40 pm - 2:50 pm CPhT Review

Friday -
8:00 am - 4:00 pm - Walgreen's Externship

Saturday -
9:00 am - 5:00 pm - Walgreen's Externship

Sunday -
Oncall for Walgreen's Externship (otherwise hopefully sleep).

oh and yes this means i got an externship and am graduating in uh March.

So my birthday came and went, I'm 23 years young. Finals are next week then I will start my last term. I finally got time off for Yule and my comp went smash, I got a lovely shiny beautiful laptop as a replacement. I'm not so sure why folks badmouth Dell so much, I think they try hard and succeed and providing good service/products. Here's the damage.

Old laptop before death:

http://i101.photobucket.com/albums/m57/valyen_fluff/laptopandtablet2.jpg

Old laptop's death:

http://i101.photobucket.com/albums/m57/valyen_fluff/brokelappy.jpg
http://i101.photobucket.com/albums/m57/valyen_fluff/brokelappy2.jpg

My new, FREE shiny toy:

http://i101.photobucket.com/albums/m57/valyen_fluff/newlappy.jpg

So I suppose I'm happy with Dell. Also I start my externship for school in the next month or so, an eventful year ahead!

-Sedyana

Birthday is on saturday, another year older and so much more poor. gods my wisdom tooth is killing me ._.

-Sedy

Since my bank was happy enough to screw me out of some money from my loans for fees I'm a bit short on what I need to get through the next two terms and my car needs new brakes. What I wanted to know is if anyone wants to buy my Wacom Intuos 3 9x12". I have the box, all the accessories, it's very lightly used (only did 2 pics with it). I looked on ebay and they're normally 350-420 dollars, I was thinking if anyone wanted it for something like 325-350? Just a thought. if you want to know what kind it's this link:

http://www.wacom.com/intuos/9x12.cfm

450 dollars brand new from wacom >.>

comments will be screened for privacy and whatnot.

-Sedyana

So I've had alot of weird dreams and some uncomfortable ones I called nightmares but this really was one...

I had a dream I got a new teacher at school. This teacher I really liked but they seemed rather "dark" so to speak. I sensed there was something about or inside them, I ended up leaving the class to sneak back in. I don't know how I stayed out of his sight but I did, and I tried to fend off whatever dark spirit or whatnot was tormenting him which only made it angry and it started to attack him. I reached my soul to his to give him my strength which angered that dark spirit until it noticed that I was helping him and it turned completely on me instead.

When it attacked me it was incredibly painful, eventually I lost my strength completely to it as I became overwhelmed, at that moment it seemed to consume my soul which I can't even explain how it felt... I blacked out and woke up screaming >.< I couldn't fall back asleep even though I tried... and now it's 3-4am ._.

-Sedyana

As an update I went back to college a few months ago, the first term ended and my second one started just recently. The thing that surprised me is that I made the president's list, I didn't know what that was until I looked at it XD so I'm really happy. I don't think I'll make it again this term, but we'll see, as long as I at least make the Dean's list I'll be happy.

The past week I've been sick every single day and am still recovering, such a pain trying to go to school and puking up your guts at the same time ;_;

So I got into Provo College this week, I don't qualify for financial aid since I'm under 24 and my parents are rich [not to mention fucking greedy as hell]. So I have to take out all the loans in my name completely and pay in full. I start this Tuesday, I'd tell more but nobody else really cares so yeah.

~Val

someone please take this knife out of my back

List for of players on Korgath you should or should not group with and why or why not:

Lano - 98% of all enchants, nice guy too
Swings - Ally warrior, very nice guy, don't gank on sight :P
Uninstall = Awesome rogue, pro pvp very friendly.

aggrobject - Scrub tank, total nubcake
asdapvp = Ninja looting whore
Crepp = 700dps rogue, nubcake
Deathv = terrabad tank
Electrodj = icemage kills healers
Hyfee - Scrub flake mage
Interdemise= mentaly retarded
Kanzaro - Fail Warrior, likes to steal gear doesn't want to try
Kelimepie - Ninja loots stuff in vault (gear + mounts included)
Maningo= Dumbass hunter
Marfin = Sunrise shitlist
Melcor - Bitch DK won't invite other DKs to 25 VoA
Paca - Bitch priest, little wiener
Panz = Little bitch
Phaseshifter - Fail Mage blizzard on solo bosses
Popular - Ninja Looter
PostmanPat = Druid ninja looter
Rayoz = Ninja Looter
Ript = Ninja Looter
Robeleader - Fail Mage blizzard on solo bosses
Shadowsteps = Dumbass DK
Shiatsu = Druid ninja looter
Soggyfoot = Ninja Looter
Tardwedge = Ninja Looter
Twitchers - Disbands group in the middle of runs (kicks you)
Ultimega - Inconsiderate cocksucker
Wondercow = Mental retard
Zealex = Ninja Looter

So supposively in January I got my job back at walmart being that I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and alot of emotional problems holding jobs or moving on with my life. I ended up snapping on my first night back there and my friend in Texas Brekk had me call the national suicide hotline. I didn't tell my parents i walked out on walmart being that they wouldn't leave me the hell alone about it if i did, I found a Mental Wellness Center up in Provo that would hopefully help me get back on my feet.

The treatment there is free for people like myself without money or insurance. Problem is with all free things there was a long wait to get in and see what they could do. So to "keep my parents off my back" I've been for the last 1-2 months "pretending" that I'm working by going over to Li and Gustov's house on the nights I'm supposed to work. The big problem about that is I'm at the end of my ropes as finances go, I owe my brother for my phone bill, I've barely been able to pay my car insurance and other bills... SL hasn't been paying what it used to so things have not been that great.

So as time has gone on I am required to attend weekly depression group meetings at this center, and they recently put me on a drug called Lexapro.. . . which needless to say fucked me up pretty good. I need to see my doctor up there again and talk about different drugs or maybe medication free alternatives.

It's not really been that fun, one of my online friends suggested that I should leave all my other friends who have just been "neglecting" me and start over fresh... . so I did and tried to spend time with her and she ended up doing the exact same thing to me that they were... ._.

Being that I'm broke as hell it makes it hard for me to pay Brekk back, let alone pay my visa off since Ginko ripped me off. It keeps me completely stuck with my parents which REALLY sucks because my therapist believes that my parents are a great deal of my stress and depression/unhappiness. I feel so lost right now... I feel like I have no way out or nowhere to go.... I wish I could have my old life back from two years ago...

A fun meme going around!

1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into Photobucket (I used Google Images)
3) Take any picture from the first page of results and post. (click on the picture and copy the HTML code)
4) You can’t copy the persons answers who posted this before you!

( Omg Pics )

Okay my finances are still pretty much screwed and I ended up moving back home (again), the place in Murray didn't work out (the place was sloppy and I had nowhere to sleep) so I couldn't keep my job there. I think I'm just going to get my job at Walmart back to at least get this debt off of me. I know my parent's are all sorts of "disappointed" in me since I'm not married or have kids or some kickass job by now but honestly I think they can bite me; I just wish I didn't have them breathing down my neck every five minutes.

Well speaking of all of this I just got out of the shower so I'm gonna head out and try to get some things done. Dunno what else to say, aside from I'll have to buy myself a late x-mas next may when I get my tax return since I've nothing right now to make up for the lack of "gifts" this year as per always.

-Snoo

you gotta love how the same person who recommends you drop friends who are "neglecting you" to get a fresh slate end up neglecting you themselves.... . talk about a slap to the face.

~meh

Okay I've reached a point that I didn't think I'd get to again. Back when I was 17 or so was probably one of the only suicidal points in my life. But with a mix of the stresses I put myself in up in this townhouse, it presses enough stress onto my job that I've been laying there thinking of suicide when I'm trying to sleep. This isn't the type of stress or thoughts I need in my life right now. YES eBay is the highest paying job I've -ever- had, YES it has full benefits from day one and a great working environment. But NO I don't think being up here is worth the job, I don't need to be thinking of killing myself and after weeks of debating I think I need to just quit, I can't keep going on like this.

My parent's will be disappointed in me for "throwing away" such a good job. But I've honestly not been so miserable in a long time. Even working at Walmart I was alot happier... is this the best choice to make? What should I do?.. .

Also on a side note. My laptop fried AGAIN!! This is the third time in about 2 weeks, they are sending -another- new video card, new memory and a new LCD screen for it. I swear to the gods if it doesn't fix it this time I will scream and demand a new PC. For the record last week I had the video card replaced, then it broke and I had the motherboard replaced. So yeah that doesn't help my stress at all.

I miss Dreamscy, wish she'd message me or write D:

-val

Okay so running with the advice of a friend of mine I've had to rethink the "friends" I have or don't have and I cut my ties with some people and am making myself more distant from others (granted me being more distant is more like me not being the one pestering them anymore which = we never talk since i don't get messaged). anyhow, it's time to find friends who actually care about me, people who willingly reach out to me. I'm on the right track and I think I have one or two but it'll take time. Meanwhile my job is discouraging because of my living situation, I get no privacy here, I have to sleep on the couch or the floor. The place is really dirty and smells funky, and I can't get my own room because one of the worthless morons living here didn't leave like he said he would. I'm stressed out, VERY uncomfortable. I've found myself crying at night unable to sleep because I just want to die, I'm losing purpose and hope with alot of things and being here doesn't help but I have no choice. My parent's house is a 40-60 minute drive in the snow away where as here is only 9 miles... *sighs* I need improvement but I don't see any options...

-val

still way behind on my bills, i could go into work today for two reasons. 1) I lost my phone last night 2) i've been depressed from being in this townhouse 3) my job is kinda blah.. but living here just puts stress on that 4) etc.....

i dunno, i'm stressed out now, i don't really look forward to x-mas again but it'll come and go. Tonight i got completely rejected by a friend i had a crush on, she told me she was lying to me when she was acting like she cared a great deal, she said she just thought pretending she loved me would make me happy... talk about ouch.

eh that's all for now..

-valval